I need to stop doing this. As soon as I get scared that I’m going to get hurt, I try to end my relationships with people, by arguing with them about irrelevant, petty little thing, which just results in me hurting myself more. I’m worried that I’ve lost both my best friend and boyfriend today. For fucking nothing. All because I’m paranoid and don’t think I’m good enough for them to actually like me more than other people. I just hurt them. I’m awful.